So much has changed since my last blog entry. I have a front door! I have a front door with numbers on it! I have a front door with numbers on it and a wreath! I have a door, numbers, wreath and a stoop! A stoop with pumpkins and mums. :) God is good.
I have started my children's book collection that I bought at my local library of the new town I live in. My cute little town where I live right around the corner from the community pool and local High School football field and track. My cute little town that has cute little parks within walking distance. (picture below)
My Cute Little house!!!! (with my cute little dog in the window)
TODAY we had our home inspection for our licensing with the state........ and WE PASSED!!!!!
I was feeling so nervous about so many little things and the things I was 'worried' about, the Licensing Lady didn't even mention.
The Licensing Lady asked us so many questions... from what typical breakfast lunch and dinner look like around here... to where is your first aid kit... to what is your water temperature set at... to how would you discipline children... to where do you store your medicines... to what family activities do you do together... to does every window open in your house?
The Licensing Lady measured the bedrooms and through her calculations figured that we can have up to 4 children in our home. and just think.... a few months ago we lived in a one bedroom apartment, not knowing how in the world we could do this!! It's all starting to be so exciting!!
Over this past weekend I went on a retreat to the Poconos with some ladies from our church. I was nervous to go because it was just last Thursday that the Licensing lady called to tell us she was coming today! I was thinking that there was no way we could get the house ready with me gone the whole weekend, but it all worked out!
I was SICK AS A DOG the entire weekend... but It Was So Worth It! It was so awesome to have two days away from technology, responsibilities, and stress. It was so awesome to regroup.. slow down.. focus on the Lord and hang out with some fun ladies! On the last day, our pastors wife encouraged us to write a letter to ourselves about what God is doing in our lives right now or really whatever you wanted to write. She will mail the letter to us next year, around this time so we can remember and look back to what the Lord has done. I spent some time praying beforehand and God's peace poured into my heart. I was continually wrestling with my emotions as I thought about never having biological children of 'my own'. But God's peace poured in and all I can say is... GOD IS REAL FOLKS! He works, He is alive, He loves His people! I kept thinking about when 14 Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these.” (Matthew 19:14) I may never have biological children but we will be loving, parenting and caring for GOD'S CHILDREN! Children who have been potentially abused, neglected, abandoned. I can 100% say with confidence, I am ok with the thought of never having biological children. God did a work in my heart this weekend. This is my mission! To love the unlovely.... to love children of all races and issues and backgrounds... whoever comes to us.. whoever stays or doesn't stay with us... we will love them all the same. We will strive to love them as God loves them.
People say.... make sure you guard your heart... make sure you don't fall in love with the children because you never know if they are going to go back to their biological family I say- FOOEY! I'm jumping in folks! I'm going to love til it hurts. That's the only way I know how. Is it because I'm a good person? NO! My heart is wackadoo. It is because of GOD's LOVE FOR ME! I can only love because I know the One who IS LOVE!
SO.... we are jumpin in folks! Within the month of November, Hubs will be having back surgery and Lord willing we will receive our Foster care/Adoption license from the state. So much is happening all at once and I'm pretty sure it's all so that God will get the glory because it's all such craziness! Within a few months time we will have moved, have had major surgery, been licensened and possibly have a baby/children in our home by Christmas! woa....
Run to the One who IS LOVE! God is real... His Word is truth... He can heal... He can bring peace.. He changes lives!
