It's been 7 months since my last post.
We now have 3 children, 2 new jobs and we are about to buy a mini van. Say Whaat??
I've never been more tired... more exhilarated... more anxious.. more peaceful... more sad... more happy all at the same time. This journey is not for the faint of heart and I'm changing... for the better.
Motherhood is changing me...
I'm now drawn to the color green. Bizaar, I know. My friend says it's because I'm a mom now and drawn to growth. It's also cool because our 11 year old daughter loves green.... and any reason for similarities to promote bonding is A.o.k. with me. P.s. forming maternal bonds with a tween is no joke! This is the age where developmentally they begin to push parents away and we are trying to pull her in! In this world things look one way but Gods ways are usually opposite of that so again we will entrust this journey to the Lord who can work it out! Woot!
I now enjoy mopping the floors. I enjoy folding laundry. I enjoy cleaning the kitchen. Or should I say I enjoy the feeling I get after its done. The sense of accomplishment knowing I'm caring for my home and my family..
I now feel like a Super Hero, a Rock Star a Multi~ tasking Queen!
Who wakes up at 5:45am, leaves the house at 7:45am, after feeding, clothing and nurturing 6 individuals (myself, hubs and Chewie included) ? THIS GIRL!
Who then spends the next 10 hours commuting, dropping off children, working at a job where I'm influencing the community for the prevention of child abuse, picking up children and doing phonetic lessons with my 4 year old in the car as we drive? THIS GIRL!
Who arrives home, whips together a meal, cleans the home, picks out clothes for the next day, hugs, kisses, reads, sings, laughs with her 3 children and falls into bed at 9:30? THIS GIRL!
I am not perfect. I take my stress out on my husband, I eat too much, I worry too much, I frown too much, I swear too much, I yell too much.... but I write all of the above to say, I am capable of much more than I thought I was capable of.
For those of you who really know me.. you know that I am more of a "be er" than a "do er". I like to just be.... hanging with friends.. watching the grass grow... laying out getting a tan... talking with people.. watching a sunset.. yada yada... but there is no time for that when there are 3 beautiful children standing at your feet, Chewie nipping at your heels, and a hubs who deserves more of me than I give.
So.... I am now a "do er" Super Star who needs to make time to just be... every once and awhile.
There is so much more to say... but I'm too busy to say it!
For my peeps, please know that I still love you! The demands of this life are great but I think of you often and cherish the short texts/messages or short calls when we can.
Off to save the world! One dirty dish at a time!
Yes.... I'm a mother now.... wow.
