Tonight is our 7th class.
Only 2 more to go!
They are bringing in other Foster Parents to class tonight for a time of Q&A. I am hoping we learn a ton from them.
I have to say, the path seems very foggy right now and unclear. Hubs and I are taking this process one step at time but currently I feel like I'm walking in fog. My emotions are literally all over the place..poor hubs. Ha!
We are still moving forward but after all these classes I feel very nervous about the whole thing. Because guess what? It's gonna be hard. Just because something is hard though ,doesn't mean it's not the right path to take.
I do too much of the comparison game. That game is making me nuts. Everybody's path is different and as I look around at everybody elses path I'm missing the beauty of my own!
You know that whole tapestry illustration? If you look at the back of a tapestry it's a big mess but you flip it over and then see the beauty of what it actually is..what the colors weaved together actually look like.
I'm a big colorful mess but hoping the colors are weaving together a beautiful story.
The typical baby story: woman gets pregnant, woman announces pregnancy, woman has 9 months to figure things out, process, gather things, set up nursery, baby shower, stretch marks, physical aches and pains, labor and delivery, bonding, beast feeding, bring newborn home.. you know the rest...
My road to motherhood will look much different than this. As I typed this list I think of all my friends and many of their baby stories have had bumps in the road but still kinda look like that. I know those bumps they experienced (struggling to get pregnant, premature deliveries, breast feeding struggles) have been very painful for them ,so I know that really any deviation from the "norm" can be an emotional process and bring heart ache.
I am just currently processing my journey to motherhood and trying to embrace the out of the norm journey that it is. I've dreamed that it would be a certain way but I have to let these dreams go and embrace the beauty of a different path.
My Bestie Katie said, your journey has always looked different. This statement actually brings a lot of comfort and peace.
So I will attend class tonight with Hubs and embrace our path. It definitely looks different but there is beauty in different.
The path is still full of question marks but isn't everybody's?
HI there:) ...I've been checking out blogs here and there about foster care families. So, here I am. Wow, you guys are basically at the same place in the journey of the beginnings of foster care. we are only just a little bit ahead as we finished our last class this past week. There is about a week's time to finalize all paper work and then it is official! We'll be 'wait' look out and be so happy when we can have a little one in our home to care for and love on:)
ReplyDeleteI'd love to keep up with your journey here in blog land and to invite you to my blog as well:)
Blessings, Deanna
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