Packing, Waiting, Waiting, Packing

Foster Care/Adoption Update:

We have nothing left to do!  Our resource worker and the state people still have stuff to do... but we have nothing left to do except MOVE! 

We wrote our biographies, we handed in copies of our bills, and now we MOVE and WAIT!

Those two words don't often go together... moving and waiting.  On one hand we are very busy as we are packing, organizing, cleaning, throwing stuff out and on the other hand time seems to be standing still as we wait.  Isn't September over yet? Isn't it time to move yet?  The summer flew by and now September feels like an eternity as we wait. 

mov·ing

/ˈmuvɪŋ/ Show Spelle[moo-ving]  

adjective

1. capable of or having movement: a moving object. 

2. causing or producing motion.

3. involved in changing the location of possessions, a residence, office, etc.: moving expenses. 

wait·ing

/ˈweɪtɪŋ/ Show Spelled[wey-ting]  

noun

1. a period of waiting; pause, interval, or delay.

 

These two words seem to be opposites and yet this is the very state we are in. Moving and Waiting.

 

We are in an outward state of 'movement' and an inward state of 'pause, interval delay'.  With this inward state of 'pause', I know God wants us to be peaceful with the peace that only He can give.

 

Adoption is truly a mind blowing subject when you think about it.....  Almost all of the time we are met with positive reactions as we share our journey with others.  Of course we are so thankful for the support and love and encouraging words. Over the years when anyone has shared with me that they are adopting my response is always, 'that's so awesome!".   and it is awesome... but it is lined with sadness as well.  In order for a child to be adopted, in essence they have had to be rejected. This is not the case in all adoptions because there are circumstances when a birth mother chooses adoption, but in our case of adopting through foster care there is a lot of pain and awful circumstances surrounding it.  I am already grieving with my future children. I am already feeling some of this pain for them.  It's probably best that I process this now, so that I can help my future children process it in the future.

 

Just like moving and waiting are two things that can co-exist, so is the awesomeness and awfulness that surrounds adoption through foster care.  

 

I am reminded of how God is called the Lion and the Lamb-  two animals that are completely different in nature.   There are so many other examples in life of things that are opposites.  There is beauty in this.      

 

So we peacefully move... and we peacefully wait.